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[11 Feb 2009|12:33am] |
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I haven't figured out a way to get to sleep before 12:30 on Tuesdays while still doing dance class and watching Scrubs. I guess that is the price to pay.
Speaking of dance class, I got into a snowball fight which turned into a grappling match which ended with me in a snowbank :( And as anyone who's tried to venture anywhere outside in the last two days knows, it's WET. I was cold and soaked, but mostly upset that I didn't even manage to get a good shot in. Hmm the side of my knee is hurting now, come to think of it. Utter fail.
In other news.... I don't know what to do :( Dating is frustrating.
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| Tiptoe |
[07 Feb 2009|12:47am] |
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People who get so wrapped up in themselves that they then have to make assumptions about others because they don't actually know them all that well annoy me.
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[12 Aug 2008|12:51pm] |
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I'm a pack-rat and can fully admit it. In an effort to clear some of my clutter in anticipation of moving soon, I decided the old-magazine collection could be trimmed. Unfortunately, my nature doesn't just let me toss aside entire piles of junk. No, I have to go through every issue, just so I can know what exactly it is that I am banishing forever from my collection. It's actually going decently well so far. Going through the Entertainment Weekly's has proven to be most interesting, though. A full-page ad for The Daily Show and Indecison...'02! The "Entertainers" of '01: 8. Tina Fey. 9. Bernie Mac. 10. Bill O'Reilly. That was an interesting flip-through. And from Dec 2001's yearn-in-review, Family Guy as the #5 ....worst TV show? "Here is a worthy successor to Arli$$ [??] as The Awful Show They Just Keep Putting on the Air, a phenomenon as inexplicable as where Larry King gets all his suspenders. As long as they keep bringing back Family Guy, a hunk of ugly animation, I'll keep using it to line the bottom of this barrel." Plus, seeing Owen Wilson referred to as a "sometime actor" in a piece about the writing for The Royal Tenenbaums, as well as John McCain being referred to as, in May 2001, a "former presidential wannabe." Hindsight!
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| Reception |
[08 Aug 2008|12:12am] |
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Working reception this week, which is always busy and interesting. ...Except I'm usually reminded why I like animals more than people. Listen, I can empathize with the fact that your house has mould and you need to get out. However, please do not get all huffy with me about the fact that your "three thousand dollar" dogs are not vaccinated and therefore cannot board with us on short notice. I can respect, although perhaps not agree with, your decision not to vaccinate your dogs, but please understand that you should be prepared to accept the consequences of said decision. I also appreciate the fact that you called me AFTER calling the vet clinic just so I could tell you the same thing the VET just did. The guy who came in yesterday apparently burned down his house, and he was much nicer than you. Very pleasant, actually. He wins.
Something interesting happens pretty much every day at work. Of note this week, coworker got bitten on the lip by a pug and went to get it checked at hospital. Which takes hours, of course. This morning we found that a guinea pig who was staying with us will sadly not be returning home, to put it that way. At least not in the same way he came - er, guess who has to make sure Snowball gets 'defrosted' before his family comes. Sorry, Snowball, may you RIP after that little ordeal. You were an older guy, so I will assume you led a full guinea pig -type life.
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| P.S. I like you |
[20 Jul 2008|11:30pm] |
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I still haven't replied to the email. It's been four days now. Four days of wondering how to say it. I know if I reply, I'm going to say something that maybe I shouldn't. And I'm too scared of the reply. That's not like me. I'm Miss Honesty-and-Openness. This isn't grade 5. I should be able to say how I feel. But instead, I'm going to let it slide for another day, and just go to bed. Curl up, and wish his first reply could have simply included, "I miss you too."
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| Must...resurrect...lj |
[19 Jul 2008|01:22am] |
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My life has been all over the place lately, so a perfect time to come back on here. I've sort of been away from the real world for a couple months. I got a job as a research assistant so I was out at Delta Marsh ("north of Portage la Prairie on Lake Manitoba" naturally follows that statement) for 5 weeks. It was so much work and a fantastic experience. It also made me realize I AM capable of being on my own (shock!) and I need to get out ASAP. The day I got home I wanted to leave again. So, I did. Booked tickets to Vancouver and jetted off a few days later for a freakin' FANTASTIC week of true vacation.
But now... back to the real world. Back to the kennel. It's nice enough, but there's the tiny issue of having neither enough hours or enough pay. That was tolerable before, but not with an actual attempt at moving out.
Oh right, and my cousin got married in there too. The wedding was moved up in an emergency kind of way, all while I was at Delta with no days (or TIME) off and limited communication. I had to come back the day of the wedding only. My alarm went off at 2:45 so I could help with the early-morning experiments, only to find it storming enough that it was too dangerous to go out. Back to bed by 4. Up again before 7 and picked up by my dad at 7:15. Back to city. Quick shower (um, and 'grooming') then dress fitting at 10. Hairdresser jetted me off from there to get hair and makeup done, pick up the dress, go home to finish getting ready, and get to Assiniboine Park for pictures at 3. Followed by the wedding. Sort of a whirlwind, which is too bad because I wish I could have been more "there" for my cousin aka best friend. Was still a great time.
....My 'little' cousin is married, though. It's kind of scary. I'm very aware that I'm single right now (although I make a point of not minding it). I just... get kind of scared sometimes that it will never happen for me. I'm nearing 25 for heaven's sakes. Maybe I'm too picky. But then I know that there's this someone... that if I could have, I would drop everything to see if I could make it work. I'm just pretty sure they wouldn't do the same. ....I'm blabbing. I shouldn't even be talking about this. I'm going to go to bed now.
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[11 Apr 2008|10:43pm] |
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I'm blogging again just so I can steal this exact quote from someone on ![[info]](http://l-stat.livejournal.com/img/userinfo.gif?v=92.2) fruchick's friend list.
"So yeah.
Date #3 with non-spark guy, and still no sparks.
Then there was his awkward lean in at the end of the date.
Major Cringe"
That about sums up my evening, and the fact that someone out there had the same evening kinda makes me feel a teensy bit better. But mostly creeped out. Definitely creeped out. Seriously... right down to the #3 part.
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| 2007 |
[01 Jan 2008|03:48am] |
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1. What did you do in 2007 that you'd never done before?
Went on a trip completely by myself. Got into a car collision. Got a university degree. Road trips with friends.
2. Did you keep your new years' resolutions, and will you make more for next year?
I didn't really make any last year, but in my head I had wanted to keep up the exercise, and I did okay with that. For this year I'll need to keep that up. I don't like the word resolutions but I do want to try getting more sleep. And avoid boy-drama. :P Haha, right.
3. Did anyone close to you give birth?
No.
4. Did anyone close to you die?
Yes, my grandma, October 15th. She was 97 so she had a good life, but it's weird that she's not here.
5. What countries did you visit?
Just US of A.
6. What would you like to have in 2008 that you lacked in 2007?
A more career-related job. A place to call my own.
7. What date from 2007 will remain etched upon your memory, and why?
Thanksgiving, because that's when everything started going to heck. But also August 20th cause that was my Colbert taping day!
8. What was your biggest achievement of the year?
Graduating. Going on a solo trip.
9. What was your biggest failure?
Um, my attempts at relationships? :P
10. Did you suffer illness or injury?
I think I had the flu early in the year. No major injuries, hurt my toe and my finger somewhat badly.
11. What was the best thing you bought?
Plane tickets.
12. Whose behavior merited celebration?
Brenda (for dealing with crazy family) and fruchick (for following her dreams)
13. Whose behavior made you appalled and depressed?
Ha, I guess I can think of one, the most recent ex.
14. Where did most of your money go?
The trip. Also I spent a fair amount on clothes. Oh...GAS.
15. What did you get really, really, really excited about?
New York!! Especially going to see the Colbert Report.
16. What song will always remind you of 2007?
That's so hard to answer right now. Hey There Delilah. Yeah.
17. Compared to this time last year, are you:
Happier or sadder: I guess I'd have to say sadder, right now. But I don't feel downright sad or anything. Just not quite as happy.
Older or wiser: How can I not be older? For that matter, how can I not be wiser?
Thinner or fatter: I have to say fatter, but there's not much difference at all.
Richer or poorer: Uh, richer I guess. Ha, that's funny.
18. What do you wish you'd done more of?
Networking to get more of a career started. Sleeping. Reading.
19. What do you wish you'd done less of?
Being bummed.
20. How did you spend Christmas?
Quietly, with some family.
21. How will you be spending New Year's Eve?
I just spent it with Brenda and her bf at the Tele show. Good times.
22. Did you fall in love in 2007?
Tricky. With hindsight I'd like to pretend I didn't, but I did.
23. How many one-night stands?
None.
24. What was your favorite TV program?
Tie between The Office and The Colbert Report
25. Do you hate anyone now that you didn't hate this time last year?
Hate is way too strong a word for me. I could say dislike somewhat strongly. Then yes.
26. What was the best book you read?
I didn't read nearly enough. The Emotional Lives of Animals. It made me realize I do want to get into animal behaviour.
27. What was your greatest musical discovery?
Nothing stands out. I did go to a few Tele shows.
28. What did you want and get?
Tickets to go to Colbert and a way to actually go.
A boyfriend (I guess I had 2)
To graduate.
Spend time with friends.
29. What did you want and not get?
To keep a boyfriend
To get a better job.
A personal best in the half marathon.
30. What was your favorite film(s) of this year?
Dan in Real Life, Ratatouille. I also enjoyed Stardust.
31. What did you do on your birthday, and how old were you?
I turned 24 and I just spent it with my immediate family. I was still pretty bummed about being dumped on Thanksgiving a few days earlier. My uncle came in that evening so I hung out with him, but then my grandma passed away that night. So, not the best birthday.
32. What one thing would have made your year immeasurably more satisfying?
Getting further in school / career.
33. How would you describe your personal fashion concept in 2007?
Um. Slightly better than 2006? Though I found out someone believed I had no fashion sense. But that's alright, that's not my priority.
34. What kept you sane?
Working at the kennel. Getting away for a couple trips (some shorter than others)
35. Which celebrity/public figure did you fancy the most?
A shock to many - Stephen Colbert, Steve Carell, John Krasinski.
36. What political issue stirred you the most?
The environment, just like always except this year more people finally got on board.
37. Who did (do) you miss?
I'm going to miss Sharilyn right about... now, since she moved today. Mark. Eliot. And my mom, always.
38. Who was the best new person/people you met?
Sharilyn :)
39. Tell us a valuable life lesson you learned in 2007:
Not everyone is going to like you, and you can't let them get you down if you are happy with who you are.
40. Quote a song lyric that sums up your year:
There's no one innocent here.
In the mirror you'll find faith
Plastic flowers never fade
We all turn to grey
I'm counting the cars, on the freeway below
Lost in the music, all the foolishness of our lives
Speeding out of control, lost in the music, the music.
-David Usher
I hope this all makes sense cause it's 4:30 AM. I only had a couple drinks though, tonight.
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| Ah, memories |
[06 Dec 2007|03:49pm] |
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I'm about to throw out my university dayplanner from last year (I think it's time to let go, also the calendar's about to run out), but I found some random stuff in taking one last leaf through it. Some of which have to do with school, some not. Some of which very few people who read this (if any) will get. For example, it took me a second to realize one must be a list of exact times taken from when I first saw fruchick 's American Idiot fanvid and was curious about the origin of certain clips used. One is a quote I took from our university newspaper, from an article entitled The Top 10 Things I Didn't get About 2006: "#3. Google hate-on. Just because Google makes billions of dollars by hiring people much, much smarter than you and giving them free food and drool worthy stock options doesn't mean it's OK to take Colbert off of YouTube." (I'm not sure I understand exactly which point the author was trying to convey, but the idea was there).
And, my favourite, which I did post in a fangirl thread on the colboard when it occurred - quotes from some sort of Spike or Fox animal-attack special. Totally reminded me of when Stephen does his "important newscaster saying random headlines" bit. Cracks me up.
..."This drug store cat was a prescription for disaster." and, "He may be Santa Claus, but not ALL the reindeer loved him."
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| Does puppy belong to the WGA? |
[05 Dec 2007|12:32am] |
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It took me around an hour and fifteen minutes to get home through the city today. Gotta love the weather. I was in a jelly-like state by the time I pulled into the garage (but incident-free!). Times like these I really wish I had a job closer to home (as much as the awesomeness helps make up for it). It's so hard to get out of the rut though. I know I need a better job (or to go back to school - but after discussing things with my prof it's not going to be that easy) and to move out. What order I'm not sure. I don't even know what I'm doing.
On the plus side, Christmas is coming. I know it's cliche but it's my favourite time of year, hands down. We even managed to get the tree up yesterday, as opposed to a few days before Christmas as usually happens. It's not decorated yet, save for lights, but let's not push it.
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It's really creepy when you're driving along, listening to a song on the radio, only to switch stations and find they're playing not only the same song but it's at the SAME PLACE. Hmm, I guess it was bound to happen eventually considering the endless repeating of songs.
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I miss Colbert!! And the Office!! It's not getting easier!
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| Oops |
[31 Oct 2007|12:30am] |
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I'm not doing anything for Halloween this year. I've never really been into it, though don't get me wrong; it can be fun. It just takes a lot of energy, and with the way things have been I just don't have it right now. Then, I decided there was one thing I could do. I made these little cat ears out of construction paper to wear to work tomorrow (kennel.... cats... makes sense). Then I remembered I booked the day off because of my optometrist appointment. Crap.
On the other side, I am planning on getting new glasses (with what money, dunno). But I'm really not sure what to look for, and my confidence in my judgment isn't so great right now, obviously.
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| What doesn't kill me... |
[30 Oct 2007|12:08am] |
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It's funny how life seems to throw you everything at once. The whole Thanksgiving breakup (after dinner with his family!) really got me down and I wasn't in much mood to do something for my birthday the following weekend. I was woken up at 4:30 AM the day after to news that my Granny had passed away. Then hearing about my cousin's husband in intensive care with some auto-immune neurological disorder - which I'm still not sure the name of, but last I heard most people recover. My dad's girlfriend is in hospital after her kidney replacement, but she's doing fine.
Still, it all makes you realize what's important, I guess. And what definitely is not important is that the new ex had some choice things to say about me during dinner with my cousin. Duh, of course it got back to me, she's my cousin and my best friend. Really, though. No fashion sense? You can have that one. Cause if that's what matters, count me out. And I realize the irony in protesting an alleged lack of social skills over a blog, but come on. That's like saying I'm retarded in a way. I've worked sooooo hard to overcome shyness, and you know - I'm happy with that. Sorry for sounding so defensive, but how can I not? I certainly did not have a problem with his good sense of fashion (a man who dresses well? Not complaining!) -not sure how that came across- and I don't know how I could have sounded uninterested in architecture when the opposite is true.
My idea of honesty is not waiting for someone to ask a question before telling the truth either. I wonder how long we would have "gone out" if it was left up to the other party. I use quotations because apparently what happened was only considered a break up by me. Whoops, silly me! Hey, what IS important is that I have lots of friends to make sure I know the real truth.
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I like cats. They're fine. I'm just more of a dog person. I've never had a dog suddenly turn around while I was brushing it and sink it's claws into my hand (quite possibly in "play"), causing pain and profuse bleeding. Then again, the same week I did have a dog scratch up my arms from frantic jumping up (clever way to avoid going in the kennel). At least that made some sense, though. Cats I don't understand.
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I would think picking up people at the gym is a no-no. But, and I'm not saying this is what happened, one could always take a machine before the other person has a chance to wipe it. Then when the person points out that fact, simply shrug it off. Not only does it force them to say something to you, by refusing the wipe-down it's like saying you aren't even bothered by their sweat! Oh. Wait. That's actually kind of gross.
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| Happy Birthday to meeeee |
[14 Oct 2007|11:47pm] |
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I don't get it.
I finally meet him. The guy. The guy who has everything I am looking for. Perfect.
Except for one thing. Turns out, he doesn't like me after all.
How is this even supposed to be dealt with? I have no answers. I've got nothing.
...Yes I'm posting again, and yes, my first post is a short, angsty boy post. Deal. (What else is this for?)
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| Eeeee! |
[28 Aug 2007|01:38am] |
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"Eeeee," that's what I've been saying all day, since it pretty much sums things up.
Right after getting home from my morning shift, just as I was sitting at my computer (I realize I do that a lot, but still) an email popped up. But this was not just an ordinary email. Nope. It was from the Colbert Report, letting me know that I have tickets to the August 20th taping!!
So, um, wow. I requested back in January, and I guess I didn't think this day would actually come. Now suddenly that's a few weeks away. In New York. That's a lot of planning. I need a passport, flights, hotel... am I crazy? Yes. But I'm already horribly regretting not going with fruchick, who is there right now. She is having an awesome time (she got her letter to Stephen, and got to meet him!!) So the timing of this kind of seems like a sign. This week I nearly had a meltdown (in every sense of the word, with this weather) and realized I need a vacation. I know I'm not even working completely full-time, but the 2 job thing is brutal. It makes at least 2.5 hours of transport, and takes away break time, and suddenly it's a 13 hour day. Plus just with the way my life is going lately - graduating, and recently becoming single again :( - I think I just need to get away. But to New York? Yikes. I'm also not convinced I can do it by myself (I don't think my dad will be, either - but he's away right now!); so I'm looking for someone cool who has money and vacation time, which is harder than it sounds. Well, maybe it's just as hard as it sounds. Yeah, I'm tired. This at least makes me feel better about so many people being away this weekend.
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| It's too hot to run |
[12 Jun 2007|09:18pm] |
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I have the entry window open for the marathon, and I only have a couple of hours to make up my mind (well, without paying an extra $35 and waiting until the last second). I am completely, totally unready, but on the other hand, I don't know if I can NOT do it. Which is worse, struggling or standing on the proverbial sidelines? I don't think I'll die.... if I walk more. Hmm.
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[08 Jun 2007|12:02am] |
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Argh. So I did go in to the new kennel today to shadow someone for 3 hours, and it was cool. But when I talked to the manager later today, and expressed interest in continuing, she basically asked how much notice I had to give to my other job. So it's not a schedule conflict (which I had already arranged to sort out). They don't want me to work there at ALL. So you know what? Maybe I won't be working THERE at all. :(
But damn, is this how it is? I just graduated, and here I am, can't even find a full time job. Also, my room is leaking. I came home today and my floor was wet, apparently it's seeping inside the walls and through onto the floor. Good day!
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| Get outta town |
[05 Jun 2007|12:16am] |
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Things are actually happening. I'll have to write about my trip to Minneapolis, and my camping trip next time. Minneapolis was the long weekend, and camping the following weekend, so I have some catching up to do. Been distracted by work, friends, boyfriend - and not complaining. Besides, I've also been lazing around since school ended. I took another job as a kennel attendent at the place right by me. That's good because it's a short walk away, and it's more hours. But I don't want to quit my other job so I guess for now I'm stuck with 2 part time jobs, which I keep saying I'll never do again. I start the new one on Thursday.
I graduate tomorrow! That whole thing is still scary.
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| Important Safety Instructions |
[01 May 2007|06:24pm] |
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I bought a new curling iron today, and there is a list of 13, yes, 13 warnings in the instructions. There are also 5 notices that merit to be part of the distinct category of "Danger." So included in all these, "Do not use while bathing or in a shower." "Do not place in, or drop into, water or another liquid." (another liquid?) "Never drop or insert any object into any opening or hose" "The curling iron is hot when in use. Do not let eyes and bare skin touch heated surfaces." (Alright, skin I could see, but eyes?) And my personal favourite - "Never use while sleeping." And that would have saved me so much time!
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| Of dreams |
[12 Apr 2007|12:29pm] |
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So, it's into exam-cram time. I'm getting sick of everyone asking about my future plans. Guess what, I don't have any! So then they offer insightful advice and encouragement, which I appreciate, but I've heard a million times before. Don't get me wrong, it's exciting times, but I keep hearing about how thrilled I should be about finishing my degree, and I'm not. I'm not done until I pass all my classes. But I like school. You know how everyone says "this is the best time of your life, you'll only realize that later"? Well I realize it now. Why do you think it took me 6 years to get a 4-year degree? Okay maybe don't answer that. It's just that I'm not sure where that degree will get me. I'll just be working at the kennel, thanks. I'd love to avoid the real world and do a Master's, but my grades aren't that stellar. I'd also love to move out at some point in the foreseeable future, but I need money for that. So all in all, I guess I'm the stereotypical fresh-faced grad.
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My dad's gone to Victoria, and I'm too busy studying to enjoy it. I swear he plans it that way.
In between studying though, I've decided to go back to the gym. I've been twice this week, and Maria and I had what I would like to call an intense session yesterday, but was more along the lines of pathetic. Ouf. Gotta start somewhere. I'm hoping the indoor track will help me get over my shin problems so I can actually start training again. Too early to tell if I've missed the boat on the Half this year.
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Last week, I had a dream that Mark said he'd call, but he didn't - he gave me his number though, but when I called I couldn't get through. Then he stopped talking to me on MSN. I woke up, and, intrigued that at least the first part of the dream rang of truth, went to tell him about it online. Except he didn't answer. Nor did he the day after, and I haven't seen him since. The end.
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No one takes their hamster to the vet, right? Niko's eye has been bothering him on and off for a couple of months now, so after it looked pretty bad this week I did some research and actually went to the drug store to look for boric acid. They didn't have any but offered to order it in. So I did. For my hamster.
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| Square one |
[12 Mar 2007|10:04pm] |
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I'm graduating soon and I have no idea what I'm doing after that.
I found out yesterday I didn't get the job I wanted, and it really got me down. Not to toot my own horn, but I was fairly confident.
The real world bites.
Well, one reaffirming thing is this video (as seen on 30 Rock). There are no words.
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